Lately, I feel constantly burdened with what God wants us to do next.  I cannot get Uganda and the poverty I saw there out of my head.  I cannot get the 147 million orphans out of my head.  Some people probably think it is because I have an obsessive personality (which is true at times and about certain things, I guess), but I sort of think this is God.  I feel like He wants me to do something more, but the frustrating part is I am not sure exactly what.  Where is the greatest need?  What can I do?  Does He want us to go?  Does He want us to adopt again…right now?  Should I start a non-profit?  Should I support and get involved with already existing non profits and organizations?  I JUST DON’T KNOW.  But I do know that He loves children. “and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.  Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.  Whoever received one such child in my name receives me, but whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a great millstone fastened around his neck and to be drowned in the depth of the sea.” Matthew 18:3-6 And He loves adoption. “he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will” Ephesians 1:5. “Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this:  to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world” James 1:27. I can’t help but feel that this passion, or burden (whatever you can call it), is from Him.  I am pretty sure it is.  And some may think that we have done our part by adopting Kai, but I KNOW we can do more.  I KNOW we should do more.  But right now that is all I know.  So, I am waiting and hoping that the next step becomes clear for us (and I do mean us.  I want Jayson to be on board with any and every decision for our family.)  I would appreciate prayer and encouragement and even advice.  We want to be used by God.  We want to be willing to go or do whatever, and we are sure it will involve caring for the orphans.  God opened all the doors and made it very clear that He had our daughter for us in Uganda, and I am sure that He will make it clear on what comes next as well, but this in between stage is driving me crazy!